I imagine that I even did this before having my son, but I am OH so noticing how I want to juggle so many things. And I am really great at focusing on one “pocket” and going all in until the other pockets of my life are screaming for attention.
My pockets are:
As I typed that out there aren’t as many compartments of my life, but those areas huge for me! There are seasons of time where I am ALL about workouts, I am constantly meal prepping and meal planning. I become obsessed sometimes. There is not space for anything else other than parenting and I am sure that it interferes there as well. I am a total emotional eater, but when I am in the zone it takes a lot for me to “fall of the wagon”, but when I do, I fall hard and it’s so difficult to get back on. While I love taking such good care of myself physically, I most certainly suffer mentally here.
When I lighten up there, I focus more on creative endeavors and I get so into it that my eating suffers and I don’t plan meals as much, which leads to more eating out than I would like. I do maintain working out, but nutrition is so key. I have struggled with this most of my life, and suspect I always will in some ways.
How do people
balance all of this? Actually, scratch the word balance. Totally overrated right? My hope for one day is that both of these worlds can exist together with even the smallest amount of harmony. For now I am offering myself grace, lots of grace.